I am dealing ridiculously bored today. I openedInstagram closed it., opened You Tube, closed that too, and somehow ended upbstaring at the ceiling like it might suddenly provide entertainment. Even my usual playlists sound boring. Maybe I don't actually need another video or endless scrolling. Maybe I need to do something completely random. I could cook something, sketch badly, rearrange my room, or just go outside for a walk. Anything is better than refreshing the same appsbevery three minutes. So people please suggest me something
Today was exhausting and I would like to file a formal complaint against my owner. She woke me up by checking Instagram before even opening her eyes. Then comes 37 notification, three screenshots of absolutely nothing and a battery percentage crisis at 12%. She took me everywhere dropped me twice, ignored five important messages and used me as a flashlight to find me under her pillow. Atvmidnight , she finally plugged me in. I thought my suffering was over . Then she whispered "Just one more reel."
I learned today that Oxford University isvoldervthan the Aztec Empire, and my brain immediately refused to accept it. That one fact send me down a ridiculous historical rabbit holebi started reading about Oxford, then the Aztecs, then mediaeval Europe and somehow ended up leaving about ancient plumbing. What began as one random facts became an hour of jumping between centuries. History is dangerous when you are wondering how people lived without Wifi.
When the evening paints the sky in gold.
I find your hand and lose the cold.
The city fades, the stars appear
And every distant scound feels near.
It tomorrow takes us far away
I'll still remember Yesterday.
Your laughter lingers likeba tune,
A little place of borrowed moon.
If srorms arrive and skies turn gray.
I'll choose your heart and choose to stay.
Through every silence every scar.
I'll find you , wherever you are.
So let the seasons rise and fall
Let time rewrite the shapebof all
If love is home then let me be
Whatever you are wherever we.
I learned today that Africa is large enough to fit the United States, China, India and several Ruroppean countries inside it, honestly, my brain needed a moment. I opened a map to check then started comparing borders, sizes, time zones,deserts and oddly shaped countries. One fact somehow became a geography investigation. Forty minutes later?
iwas zooming around IGoogle Maps, wondering why school maps madevthe world look completely different from reality.
I learned today that a day on Venus is longer than its year, and naturally, I had questions. I started reading about Venus, then it's strange rotation, extreme temperatures, clouds, and atmosphere Somehow, I ended up comparing planetary days and years across the solar system. I only wanted one weird fact before bed . Forty minutes later I was lying under my blanket staring at the ceiling and wondering how many other completely ridiculous things are happening above us while we casually go about our day.
Finish this thought: "I used to believe... but now I know..."
I used to believe if I am nice to everyone, everyone will be nice to me.
I really believed it. Like a rule. If I give, I will get back. If I help, I will be helped. If I love, I will be loved.
So, I was nice. Too nice.
If someone needed notes, I sent immediately, even if my exam was next day. If someone needed money for auto, I gave even if I Had to walk. If someone needed help to hide their secret relationship from parents, I helped, even if my own mother was strict and checked my phone daily.
I said yes to everything. Yes to going out when I didn’t want to. Yes to sharing my tiffin when I was hungry. Yes to listening to their boy problems till 2:45 AM When I had tears in my own eyes for my own secret love, for that boy in…
If you could forgive one thing — including yourself — what would it be?
If I could forgive one thing, I would forgive myself.
Not others. Myself.
I would forgive myself for being too hard on myself all these years. For thinking I am not enough. For comparing my chapter, one with someone else’s chapter. For scroling Instagram at midnight and feeling like everyone is ahead, except me. For thinking, I am late, slow, failing.
I want to forgive myself for how badly I talked to myself. If a friend failed, I would say it’s okay, you will do better. But when I failed, I called myself dumb, useless, Worthless. I would never say that to my best friend, but I said it to myself. I was my own bully.
I want to forgive myself for trying to be perfect. For wanting perfect marks, perfect skin, perfect…
I learned today that 0.999... is actually equal to 1. And my first reaction was, "Absolutely not". Naturally, I had to investigate, I started reading about decimals, fractions, limits and why an infinite string of 9s can represent exactly the same number as 1. Then I tried proving it myself with a few different methods.nwhat started as one irritating littlebfact turned into an hour of mathematical condusion and fascination. Somehow maths hadbmanaged to make a number I used every day feels suspicious.
There are these moments in life where we are completely clueless and envision all impossible things ahead and expect only negative things happening and you don’t know what to do that sec!
Hey everyone! It’s me again with another journal of mine where I try to make you feel not everything is impossible that you make yourself feel it’s impossible
I have myself come across these situations in my life and what I have learnt in dealing with those is
“JUST BREATH”
it’s that simple, just breath until you feel that your able to think present not future not past
There is always this pattern that has followed for millions of time and that’s TIME
Time changes everything! People your with, behaviour, hobbies, personality, choices, places etc.
But always remember that, time can also make t…
It was a regular Wednesday for me. I was working as per my usual schedule. The househelp Kanta came at her regular time that was 10:30 in the morning. I continued my work while Kanta finished her daily chores. After finishing her work Kanta came to my room to speak with me.
"Didi I need two days off," she said while fidgeting with the pallu of her saree.
I looked in her direction and I had not yet decided what to say. I never ask her the reason for taking the days off or I never even tell her that she should come early and finish the work instead of taking the day off. Being a working women I know that how painful it is to ask for leave from the boss. I try to avoid that agony for my househelp.
While Kanta knew that I was not asking her for the reason she herself decided to tell me the r…
We shifted our house in 2021, from Chotta Shimla to New Shimla. We had only one day to do it because the new tenants were coming the next day.
We booked a small pickup truck. My father, me, and the driver. Three people.It started raining at 10 am. Not heavy, but that Shimla wala continuous rain which makes everything slippery.
We had this old almirah. Very heavy, my grandfather's. Four people are needed to lift it. But we were only three. We tried to push it down the stairs. Halfway down, the driver slipped. The almirah hit the wall and one of its legs broke. Loud sound.My mother came out and shouted "aaram se karo, kya kar rahe ho."
We left it there on the stairs for 20 minutes, just standing in the rain, covered with a plastic sheet. Then we called our neighbour's son. He came, and fina…
I never thought life could become this much beautiful, or that I would learn so much from everything I’ve been through.
Today, I feel genuinely very grateful and happy for everything that came along my way. Every person, every situation, every experience, and even the things I never expected to teach me anything.
Each one of them shaped me in some way and helped me become the person I am today. I choose growth over complaining, learning over wasting time, and moving forward instead of wasting time.
I am thankful for every little thing that played a part in shaping me, even the things once didn’t understand.
I’m grateful for the journey, the lessons, and everything that made me who I am.
Few things didn’t happend the way I wanted, but they still gave me something I needed. A lesson, a litt…
My sister had told me that at the mall one of the shops had their clearance sale and they had amazing collection. Since me and my mom both of us wanted to buy traditional outfits we decided to visit the mall. We decided to go on a Monday so that we can avoid the weekend crowds.
We went to the mall on Monday. As expected the mall was almost empty. The shops to did not have many visitors. We visited the shop and found that apart from us there were a couple of other shoppers. Me and my mom were browsing through the collection to see if we are liking anything.
While I was looking through the collection I saw that a woman probably in her late 20s or early 30s had been around me. She was with a man presumably her friend or husband. I noticed her because a couple of times I had seen her glanc…
They say, there is never too late , life always has a u turn. If you know that your decision is not about your happiness, there is better option to change it. Regret is always not a last choice for any mistake.
But, is a u turn always works in every situation? Perhaps no. Some mistakes are not to be ammended. They are like a lesson for anyone. Such types of mistakes are only happens to teach us a deep lesson about life's unexpected faces. Such situations are only meant to accept our mistakes and move on.
I also wanted take a u turn in my life, when I saw my bad decisions making my life unworthy. But in my case, it was not possible. I have to take responsibility for my decisions.
But, can I make it better? I think still my life is in my hands. Not completely, but slightly I can make it bet…
If you had to choose between your dream and your responsibilities, which one would you choose?
Sometimes life doesn’t ask us whether we are ready to give up on our dreams. It simply puts responsibility in front of us and asks us to handle them.
We start thinking “maybe I’ll chase it later”.
Later becomes next year. Next year becomes when things get better. And in long term dreams become a memory.
But maybe giving up is not always answer. Maybe sometimes we need to adapt, pause, adjust, change to keep our dream alive.
I believe responsibility matters but so does the person we want to become.
Why does everything feel slightly different at night?
I don’t know if it’s just me, but somehow a completely ordinary day can feel boring, and then the clock crosses 11 PM and suddenly I want to do everything. Clean my room. Rearrange my cupboard. Start a new series. Make a playlist. Learn something random. Plan my entire future. And obviously, think about things I didn’t even remember existed five minutes ago.
There’s something about nighttime that makes normal things feel interesting.
During the day, everyone is busy. There are messages, calls, work, studies, people asking questions, notifications going off every few minutes. Your mind is constantly moving from one thing to another
But at night, everything becomes quieter. Even your phone feels different when the whole house is asleep and you’re just sitting there scrolling.
And somehow, th…
What happened when you feeling left out or outcast
It happened with me so many time,don’t know why if it really happened or I think too much . In my childhood I have changed schools due to some reason and when ever I join new school I felt outcast .I want to be friends with those who are smart or labelled as cool but somehow I end being left out .I act like a cool person or try to impress others but eventually I felt left out. In my family I always feel left out in gatherings or functions no one actually give attention to me they treat me as if I m some kind of alien or other species and I don’t belong to them or one of them .
Sometimes I feels like I overthink
I don’t know if it’s my nature or behaviour I mean if someone approaches me or talk to me or became my friend I give them p…
Sometimes I wonder how easily we forget to appreciate what we have while thinking about everything we don’t.
We look at someone else’s life and notice what exists in theirs that doesn’t exist in ours.Someone has a bigger friend circle.
Someone has a relationship we wish we had.
Someone travels more.
Someone has a family that seems closer.
Someone has opportunities we keep waiting for.
And slowly, without realizing it, we start believing that our life is incomplete.
We spend so much time asking, “Why don’t I have this?” that we forget to ask, “What do I already have?”
Maybe that’s the question we don’t ask often enough.There might be people who would give anything to have the kind of ordinary day you’re complaining about.
The friend you casually talk to every evening.The parent who reminds…
Have you ever had a day when nothing particularly bad happened, yet you still felt… wrong?
No one insulted you. Nobody told you that you weren’t good enough. Nothing went terribly wrong. And yet, somewhere inside, there is this
strange heaviness that makes you question your own worth.You try to understand it.“Why am I feeling like this?”
But you don’t have an answer.Maybe that’s what makes it harder.Sometimes we can explain sadness. We can point towards a reason—an argument, a disappointment, a rejection, a bad day. But there are moments when sadness simply arrives without introducing itself.
You wake up feeling a little less confident than yesterday.You look at other people and somehow feel like everyone is moving forward while you’re standing still.
Someone achieves something, and instea…
